I didn’t always want to be a writer.
When I was little I wanted to be a ballerina. I imagined myself dancing in the New York City Ballet, buying new pointe shoes for every show, tip toeing around on beat-up feet, catching roses tossed my way after every show.
When I got to high school and realized I was no where close to being a professional dancer, I lost my dream and turned to what I knew best: journaling. I had no idea that those long nights spent in confusion, pouring my heart out onto pages of paper, suddenly adrift in a world of college applications, insistent parents and career fairs, would eventually lead me to discovering my passion: writing.
I didn’t always want to be a blogger.
In high school, after a dramatic, soul-stirring women’s conference, I felt inspired to begin a blog to document my faith, but never know exactly what to say, who I was writing to, or even why. Without a clear purpose, I eventually shut it down, glad to move away from the reading eyes of “the public” (mostly just a handful of facebook friends who cared enough to read).
As a college student pursuing journalism, it’s almost a necessity to have an online writing presence. For resumes, contacts, social media links – everyone has some sort of platform where they share their writing. A few months ago, inspired by a professor to begin to write online, I started this blog and named it “girl on the verge,” because I feel, as a woman in her mid-twenties, striving after a writing career, to be experiencing new highs and lows every day.
But it isn’t enough for me to write here just to “get noticed” (hah!), spread the word that I write, or create an online presence for future employers to see. Focusing on that element gets me farther away from the reason that I write: because I love to. I love to write about my experiences as a woman, the truths that I learn, the beautiful stories of people around me, the little things in life that give me joy. Writing here just to further my career takes away the passion and the heart of my writing.
So, bear with me as I figure out this online writing world – how I want to write, as I figure out who I am as a writer and woman, and as I work on leaving behind the social media norms and the career and the must-haves and the do this and just write to create relationships with you!